don't even bother to read it 'cause i wrote it only for myself and for the one that doesn't exist.

[melun]

against the mirror, i mostly feel like the one i see is not me. what a cliche huh? why do many more people keep saying that in their literary writings nowadays.. well, i don't know. and you know what, i actually don't even want to know. the only thing i want to know is why i couldn't make that feeling mine, only mine. it irritates me when someone says that he feels the same damned way i feel. how can it possibly be ? i'm not him; therefore, he can't hate himself the way i hate myself. anyway, i'm just wasting my time assuming that one day someone will be able to understand me.

[Head]

hayatta bazı şeyler vardır.
paylaşıldıkları zaman anlaşılırlar.

belkide budur bazı şeylerin nedeni.

kendini seviyor musun?
kendine kızıyor musun?
geleceği düşünüyor musun?

ümit konusuna gelince..
" .. and for the one that doesnt exist." gibi bir cümleyle ümide sıcak baktığını göremiyorum.
aslında ben de ümidi sevmem.
çünkü ümit yalnızca işkenceyi uzatır. ( F.N. )[hline]valandil ownz j0o!
-emokid*-
7/24 melancholic